home sick!

[Tô Lan Phương]

What's a cold afternoon. Right now, I sit here and type some meaningless thing. Just wanna reduce my lonely feeling. I wonder where is my power. The more I live here the more boring I have. I miss my house so much. I miss the long dyke along the river, miss the pomelo garden in my grandparents' yard, miss the chiken soup...
In the countryside, my day is full up the love of my family. I can get up late and stay on my bed untill my dad comes and says: get up baby, the breakfast is ready now...

[Tô Lan Phương]

Too tired, too bored and too lonely after 12 hours working. I come home alone on my Novou. It's too cold to a little girl travel in the dark night. Around me, each couple reaches to the happy places. They laugh, make joking. Girls are shy, boys are gentle. The restaurants always crowed of people. It's seem everything has its work. Just I'm isolated in my empty mind.
Get home, the rest room is busy, there are no place to clean my full of cosmetic face.
Why do I have to work? Because of the salary? not really.
Different to work in the hospital, all patients ought to obey you because you are a doctor. In my clinic, the customers aren't the patients. They have money, they have choices. And they dont like to follow your indications. They think that they have a right to be more beautiful without complying with your advices. They bring to you a amount of money and tell you how they want to be. They automatically think that thier money eqals thier beauty.
I aware clearly that I work for a service clinic not a hospital any more but sometime I cant stand for that. So funny!
More than every stuff I have...I am short of energy because of you who I dont know any information about. where are you? who are you? and how are you? I just accept that I am waiting for you. I hope you come soon to pick me up and take me to some places where's no cold and lonely feeling any more.